I'm lost

Don't know if I'd delete this later or not. But just like this post's title, I'm feeling lost. I often think about the reason I live, my life goal... there was time when I was so sure about what I'm going to do with my life. Now, I don't know anymore. I'm still doing anything I can, but it's just like.... what for?

I somehow realized that adulting is such a lonely journey, my past self would never admit that "I AM LONELY" but now, I can say that easily. Actually, I was lonely sometimes but I always said that "I'm okay, I didn't feel lonely at all." Which was totally lie. I cried myself to sleep and no one knew because I don't like to show my weak side. Why am I writing this right now? Hahahhaa, I think sometimes it's okay not to be okay, huh :p

I tend to overthink and it's killing me. Maybe I'll be fine tomorrow tho, maybe this is just midnight thoughts... I don't even blog so often now, when it WAS my life, the thing I love the most. I used to blog because I love to share, but when it became one of my income source, I forgot the original purpose: to share. Can't be hypocrite tho, I need money to pay bills, I need money to survive. Now it's my job to make it balance, to give more organic posts; share about things I love. I miss blogging, that's why I'm writing this right now :))

There is much more I want to write about this blogging/ content creator stuff, but maybe next time? I will write more posts about my thought (hopefully). I need to go back to my editing work now, another thing I do to survive the life, lol. Sooo relieved after pouring this out here :)

Bioderma Sebium Lotion and Sebium Mat Control Launching Event

Yeay, new products from Bioderma, yaitu Bioderma Sebium Mat and it's a good news for you who have oily combination skin! Tau ngga, kalau iklim Indonesia yang tropis menyebabkan kebanyakan jenis kulit yang dimiliki adalah kombinasi cenderung berminyak. Selain wajah bakal keliatan "licin", wajah berminyak yang nggak dirawat dengan baik dan tepat dapat menimbulkan masalah yang lebih serius (atau menyebalkan), yaitu jerawat.

Aku sendiri tipe kulitnya lebih ke kombinasi, berminyak hanya di daerah T-zone. Wajah berminyak selain disebabkan oleh hormon, dipengaruhi juga oleh beberapa faktor eksternal seperti polusi, keringat, stress, matahari, AC, pola makan, dll. Aku belajar banyak ketika menghadiri launching event Bioderma Sebium Lotion dan Sebium Mat Control. Keep on reading to know more about oily skin and their new products ;)

Salah satu narasumber di event tersebut, Dr. Jonathan (Dokter spesialis kulit dan kelamin) menyampaikan bahwa untuk mencegah pori-pori tersumbat dan jerawat pada kulit kombinasi/ berminyak, kita harus mengontrol sebum production agar tidak berlebih dan menjaga kualitas sebum agar tidak berubah. Oleh karena itu, Bioderma mengeluarkan 2 produk ini untuk mengatasi kedua hal tersebut.

Sebium Lotion adalah toner yang dapat menyeimbangkan pH kulit setelah mencuci wajah, dan menjaga kelembaban hingga 8 jam. Lotion ini dapat menyamarkan pori dan mencegah timbulnya jerawat dan meregulasi produksi sebum sehingga baik untuk kulit kombinasi cenderung berminyak. Teksturnya cair berwarna bening, dengan wangi yang segar banget. Pas diaplikasiin cepat meresap dan nggak lengket.

Setelah pemakaian Sebium Lotion, dilanjutkan dengan Sebium Mat Control, yaitu moisturizer yang punya triple action: moisturizing, mattifying, dan smoothing. Teksturnya berwarna putih, saat diaplikasikan sangat mudah diblend dan nggak lengket, lalu akan terasa agak licin dan powdery gitu di kulit. Hal ini dikarenakan Sebium Mat Control ini mengandung  Mattifying Powder untuk menghilangkan kilap di daerah berminyak, Perfecting Powder untuk menghaluskan pori-pori, dan moisturizing agents untuk menjaga hidrasi kulit. Oh iya, pake ini sebelum apply makeup lumayan loh untuk menyamarkan pori-pori dan bikin makeup lebih halus juga.

Hm, mungkin ada yang bingung ya daritadi aku ngomongin produk untuk kulit kombinasi cenderung berminyak, tapi kok nyebut-nyebut hidrasi? Penting untuk diketahui kalau kulit kombinasi/ berminyak justru membutuhkan hidrasi yang baik, karena kalau dehidrasi, kulit justru akan menghasilkan semakin banyak minyak di wajah. Oleh karena itu, kedua produk ini dilengkapi fungsi menghidrasi tanpa membuat wajah mengkilap.

Thank you for having me!

Seoul and Busan in Disposable Camera

Oh, hola Dreamers! It's been a while, huh? No excuses, I'll straight to the point ;p I finally developed my disposable camera during Korea trip last year. Not so many, just 18 photos but they bring back memories. How I miss traveling abroad :) Before I show you the photos, I also wrote about Tokyo in Disposable Camera + why you should buy one back then, in case you want to read it too, hehe. The photos will be separated into 2 parts: Seoul and Busan. Enjoy!

Good bye, Busan! 

Yay, end of this post! Hope you enjoy this short photo diary, I don't go traveling abroad this year but hopefully I'm going back to Japan next year, hahaha! Jaa ne~

Life Update: Freelancing

Hola, Dreamers! This post has been in draft since 20 May 😅 Now I'm writing this because I miss blogging so much! As you can see I post much less than usual, some things just happened and I was not really in the mood to write. Long story short, I am now officially a freelancer! I had already planned it since the beginning of this year, but things just didn't go accordingly to my plan-- I mean the timing didn't go as I planned, but it's okay. It's just happened sooner, although I was not well prepared. 

I am now working as video editor, motion graphic designer, and of course blogging- or so called content creator (don't really like being called influencer, tbh). I have sooo many ideas in my head about things I want to do, gonna make it happen one by one. Well, still much procrastinating but I will work on it! 

Hopefully I can write more and more here, for daily content you can follow my instagram: @japobs. I usually post about my outfit, beauty things, lifestyle, travel, fun things to do, etc. See ya on the next post! ((Hm why it's kinda hard to write a blogpost now... I don't know what to write anymore lol))